The last time I worked was a few days before Kelsey was born almost 4 years ago. I have been a stay at home mom since she was born and part of what lead to this blog. I have been with her almost everyday of her life and Aubrey has never gone more than a few hours without me in her first year of life.
Until last week.
I never intended on staying home forever and figured I would look at going back when Aubrey turned 1. Well, a weeks short of that, I started looking and sent a few resumes out. Then, an opportunity through a friend presented itself. After two interviews, I found myself being offered a full-time position the week of Aubrey’s first birthday. It starts tomorrow.
Thankfully, it worked out that I was able to get both girls into the same daycare nearby on base and that they could start a week before my position started. Kelsey has loved it and adapted very well to going everyday (she was going two full days a week at another daycare before this). Aubrey, on the other hand, has had a rougher time adjusting.
As I suspected, she enjoys playing and, after being a little cautious the first day, she is eating well. However, the most worrisome part for me is that she isn’t really taking to the new sleep schedule of 1 nap after lunch instead of an AM and PM nap. Also, the biggest change is that at home she is nursed to sleep for naps and often just takes her naps on my lap or in a carrier. At least she is quiet when she wakes up after a short catnap and looks at books while the teachers do their tasks. I just wish I could get her to sleep at night.
While they were at daycare this week, I constantly kept checking my phone. Only one call – apparently, Aubrey has some sort of skin allergy to cottage cheese we are now going to be looking into. At least she has been getting more comfortable with the adults that care for her and all the staff seem nice, knowledgeable, and hard working.
The other thing is that this daycare refuses to utilize cloth diapers so we now provide disposable diapers and wipes for while she is there but are still using cloth diapers and wipes at home in the evenings and on the weekends. I find it a little depressing, but I’ll get over it.
We are still nursing at home. So, we’ll see how long she is interested in it. I actually had to go purchase regular bras and part of my work wardrobe since I have been mainly living in nursing camisoles.
I am excited about going back to work and my job is going to be challenging and taking me back into the worlds of both dance and education. It is just tough going back as a Mom. I think I have questioned whether or not I should at least once a day since accepting the offer. I question whether or not I’ll be able to balance work and family. I question if I am doing more harm than good for my girls. I don’t know how this transition is going to go for all the parties involved.
I have adjusted my tasks so that I do a majority of household chores and personal errands during the weekdays so there is lots of family time in the evenings and weekends. That is not going to be an option anymore. Just going to visit family won’t be an option for a while and will take more coordination. On the other hand, I am looking forward to the occasion lunch date. My husband took this past week off and it was wonderful to eat and converse in peace.
I also got a ton of projects and things around the house done including a yard sale. Cleared out some clutter before things get busy and it gets too cold and we made enough to get the next size up of car seats we need for the girls plus a few odds and ends of winter clothing.
It is going to be interesting around here for the next few weeks as everyone adjusts to our new normal, but I am hopeful everyone will come out okay in the end. I am excited about the new clothes I picked up and I actually had a reason to get some new makeup and get my nails done.
I am grateful that I had the chance to be home with these two gorgeous little girls, even if some days I wanted to pull my hair out. I am now happy to take on the challenge of getting out into the world again. Wish me luck!